Welcome to Chaos Theory,

a newsletter we follow all the threads, think and feel deeply about complex things, and get inspired by the unexpected. A newsletter for lateral thinkers and creative souls. For multi-hyphenates and storytellers. It’s for rebels-at-heart and those who feel everything so, so deeply. Weekly letters into your inbox, with selected essays published here.

What does your creative practice look like?

What does your creative practice look like?

What does your creative practice look like? Mine looks a bit like this: Nature walks and swimming in the sea, Photography and collage, Embroidery and working with found objects, Staring at the wall and driving in silence, Conversations with friends, Gardening by trial and error (mostly error) and…

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Just an ordinary human

Just an ordinary human

In the actual play podcast (if you’ve never heard the term, think improvised radio play) Chapter and Multiverse that my teen introduced me to, one of the characters, Mini Smithson (played by Lydia Nicholas) is an alien pretending to be human – but not succeeding very much (and it is…

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World-building and looking for my lineage

World-building and looking for my lineage

I’m staring at a blank page today. I’m not quite sure what I want to write about. I have so many drafts and half-started essays, all of them competing for my attention. It frustrates me. Should I write about walking the tightrope of a public creative practice, and the dangers of seeking out…

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Just begin.

Just begin.

When Diana Gabaldon sat down to write her first novel, she did it for practice. She’d not written fiction before and figured that the best way to learn – and see if she’s any good at it – is to just write one. She settled on historical fiction because, by her own admission, if it…

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On anthropology of play

On anthropology of play

My two current crushes – an intellectual one (anthropologist David Graeber) and entertainment one (comedian Brennan Lee Mulligan) recently collided when the latter casually quoted the former in a podcast interview on Adventuring Academy. Sidenote: Adventuring Academy is a Dropout TV…

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I’m leaving Substack

I’m leaving Substack

Hi friends, These past couple of years have been somewhat of a public unravelling as I’ve been figuring out where I want to go next. I’m no stranger to flying by the seat of my pants, following my nose, and figuring stuff out as I go (and it has worked out pretty well for me so far – from…

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I couldn’t really imagine it – until now

I couldn’t really imagine it – until now

My grandmother never told me much about her experience of the siege. We learned a lot about it at school – the 900 days, the 1.5 million dead, the heroism of the people, the Shostakovich’s Symphony No. 7, the “this side of the street is more dangerous during an aerial attack” (the…

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This dis-imagination machine.

This dis-imagination machine.

In the final chapters of Evgeny Zamyatin’s dystopian novel We, the authorities have finally figured out what was causing the turmoil that has permeated the otherwise perfectly calibrated society of synchronised workers and glass houses. The problem, it turned out, was that some humans…

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